To Bitch or not to bitch ...

When Joe and I were first married and still in the glow of the only two people in the world who could possibly be this much in love ... stage, I used to find comfort --- I don't know another adjective to use --- safe? I could fall asleep when he began to do a light snore.

It wasn't a SNORE ... it was just a -- I'm asleep and all is peaceful kinda thing --- I would wait for that sound. Of course he could and does still fall asleep almost as soon as his head hits the pillow!

Me? oh, hell no... I've got to solve all the world's problems before I can sleep... sigh


We've had separate bedrooms for years now... hmm at least 15? whatever. TMI, you say? well, this blog is TMI personified... Haaa

Anyway... his recuperating is the most time we have spent with each other in well... I can't remember when.

The maternal... nurturing -- whatever it is we women seem to innately possess... takes over and I don't want him to fall or hurt and not eat this or that ... and it has helped with my annoyance of him.... HAHaaaa.... I know I've got to come off as a female dick head but our marriage has not been easy. I have shared 28 years of my life with him and it should have been less!

However.... as I've posted many times... our interaction as a married couple has been over for years. We do not do anything together -- no laughs -- our tastes have just gone in opposite directions. We were very different when we met and married ... and as the years have progressed ... the differences have just proved to be ... well, too different.

BUT back to this post and snoring... We have separate bedrooms... It's about 2 or 3 am... I'm awakened by SNORING ... I'm talking SNORING ... I thought maybe a train had derailed... jeeeeeezus! As I was listening to this! It reminded me of the above referenced newly married and in love snore.

Well!? it ain't no more... But... he's recovering and well... he can snore if he wants... white of me, eh? Funny how time changes us and we change time... and well... here I am .. old and trying to figure out what the hell I want to do with the rest of my life.

I've been so many places in my life and time... oh, man... what a song and it chokes me up every time I hear it... Joe cut a CD for me about ten years ago and labeled it ... Songs that remind me of you ... we were going through a really bad time ... this CD saved us for a bit... He gave it to me... I really didn't want to listen to it...

I had just closed the shop and was relaxing upstairs... put on the CD ... there were 6 songs - all just - well? I might drag it out and play it -- hard to listen to - anyway, I started bawling -- went to where he was ... he was at his desk talking to my son and his girlfriend du jour ... grabbed his face and planted the biggest most passionate kiss I had kissed in years ... HAAaa... my son and his du jour -- were stunned and said -- I've never seen anything like that in my life... Haaa... Joe was well... glad he cut the CD...;)

My passion and natural love for showering affection had been stymied for so long... it all went so wrong... dammit

Here's the one I do remember well .... wanna hear it? a little Leon...

I've been so many places

In my life and time

I've sung a lot of songs

I've made some bad rhyme

I've acted out my love in stages

With ten thousand people watching

But we're alone now and

I'm singing this song for you

I know your image of me

Is what I hope to be

I've treated you unkindly

But darlin' can't you see

There's no one more important to me

Darlin' can't you please see through me

Cause we're alone now and

I'm singing this song for you

You taught me precious secrets

Of the truth with holding nothing

You came out in front and I was hiding

But now I'm so much better

And if my words don't come together

Listen to the melody

Cause my love is in there hiding

I love you in a place

Where there's no space or time

I love you for in my life

You are a friend of mine

And when my life is over

Remember when we were together

We were alone and

I was singing this song for you

We were alone and

I was singing this song for you

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An old joke but .. well, I'm old.. HAHaaaaa... pretty silly

A couple has a dog that snores. Annoyed because she can't sleep, the wife goes to the vet to see if he can help. The vet tells the woman to tie a ribbon around the dog's testicles, and he will stop snoring. "Yeah right!" she says.

A few minutes after going to bed, the dog begins snoring, as usual. The wife tosses and turns, unable to sleep. Muttering to herself, she goes to the closet and grabs a piece of red ribbon and ties it carefully  around the dog's testicles. Sure enough, the dog stops snoring. The woman is amazed!

Later that night, her husband returns home drunk from being out drinking with his buddies.
He climbs into bed, falls asleep and begins snoring loudly.  The woman thinks maybe the ribbon might work on him. So, she goes to the closet again, grabs a piece of blue ribbon and ties it around her husband's testicles. Amazingly, it also works on him! The woman sleeps soundly.

The husband wakes from his drunken stupor and stumbles into the bathroom. As he stands in front of the toilet, he glances in the mirror and sees a blue ribbon attached to his privates. He is very confused, and as he walks back into the bedroom, he sees the red ribbon attached to his dog's testicles. He shakes his head and looks at the dog and whispers, "I don't know where we were ....  or what we did ... but, ... We took first and second place."